Sunday, January 23, 2005

Happy Where I Am Now

Date: Dec 21, 2004
From: JB
To: MJS
(Note: JB used to Snowbird but now stays put due to age and health problems.)

Returning to the computer after a short fast! I just had to see if I could stay away from it, and I was actually kind of busy, so it wasn’t too hard. I had a nice day with my grandchildren, which I love, but now I am exhausted after movie and walking too.

I was thinking while driving home the other afternoon how really happy I am to be settled here again, how comforting is known and loved never-changing landmarks. I was noticing the late afternoon winter sun on the mountains to the east that I can see from my kitchen, living room and porch. I often soak in the beauty of warm orange shadows on the Calicos, and after a cold stormy night I enjoy the early morning sparkle of light on snow-capped Ord Mountain. These are all permanent sights of Home for me, and then thinking further of how comforting they might be to my husband who has lived within their view so much longer than I have even.

Another good thing here is going into our favorite restaurants and being greeted by a waitress who cheerfully asks “How are you two today?” and sometimes taking too long to stop at the store for milk, OJ and fresh produce because I run into several old neighbors or former co-workers I haven’t seen in a while. For me, these things couldn’t happen anywhere else! This is HOME! It’s the people and topography, like in “Cheers,” a place where somebody knows my name.

I was also realizing the other evening how I have created an “assisted living” situation here for my husband, with so many alert to his situation. I just hope my eyes are still good enough to read all day, if I want to, when I get to his stage of life. There always seems so much to do I can’t get, find, and take enough time for myself to read. That is something I had more time for when we were rambling around essentially homeless for fifteen years. I don’t dare go into Costco or Barnes and Noble! Books jump into my hands!

Date: Dec. 21, 2004
From: MJS
To: JB

Isn’t it great to be happy where you are anyway? Just keep the spare room ready for me. Good weather is always a plus, but it seems like there is nowhere that it is perfect all the time.

My son and his wife are moving to a house of their own today. My granddaughter is pushing her Mom’s buttons with her attitude. I asked her what she could do to make herself happy? She didn’t know, but she perked up not long after. No matter how young, sometimes we’re best left to our own devices.

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